| Current mood: |  confused |
Status: Loosing It!!!
Okay people I am officially loosing it.
I am completely lost and out of my mind.
I have small hands and to much is in them.
I have to:
1)find an internship in the next, hmm let's see, 4 days? 5 days?
2)Map out my future, which includes plans for next year, which i am not to keen on making right now.
Right now i know nothing, i am so confused my mind is more jumbled than a contortionist on a ferris wheel(picture it). I do not like making decisions and i have come to a point in my life where i have to make some pretty big ones, and i am lost.
I do not know how i am going to pull this off.
I feel like locking myself up in my room and waiting for peter pan to sneak in and whisk me off to Never Never Land so i never have to grow up , never have to make tough decisions, never have to worry about failing, and never be in this sort of predicament again.
But unlucky for me, i am not a dreamer. I know that no green tights wearing Peter Pan is going to jump through my window and make his little fairy sprinkle her magical dust on me to make me fly to Never Never Land so i never have to face my problems.
The only way I am getting to such a place is in my head with a little help from Mr.LSD.
So I am stuck.
Yup glued down.
I cant move foward because i am incapable of making a decesion and incapable of controlling my own life.
Im young, naive, how can this be left up to me? If i screw up it will be my fault. Am i ready for that /
I think not.
so maybe i will just sit here and sulk.
I will shut my eyes really tightly and pray that when i wake up i am 6 months into the future and my decision is made.
I know it won' t happen.
I know i will have to face my fears.
I know that i will have to choose.
I know that it is up to me and only me .
I know also this , true, but a girl can try can't she?
Or maybe not.
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